Pt2.

So stressed out earlier that my finger went numb. Twas weird and made me panic, then that bloody cycle started: stress, numbness, panic, stress, numbness, palpitations, panic etc. Etc.

Luckily its tired me out so I will sleep tonight xD

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Decided to try and write my novel again. See if I can pull down the writers block. I miss writing, its so peaceful and let's me vent my weird imagination xD

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Bit upset at finding out thst you can be the most caring person in the world but sometimes someone is too far gone to even see a problem and then there's the 'you can't help someone who won't help themselves' saying.

I now know that's true. Even then they might not appreciate it. So I've just decided to look after myself from now on. Don't like people wanting my attention sometimes and then telling me to mind my own business. Not doing that again, I can assure you!

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Writing.

Thinking about how I'm going to recreate a plot for my novel. Wrote a hundred pages last year but my notes about the ending got lost in the move to the flat.

So I have to rewrite an ending and maybe change the middle a little.  Reading Stephen King really teaches you about writing horror. He is actually the King!

Omg.

Some bitch on Jeremy Kyle left her kids with her mother to bring them up all their lives because she had a 'bad breakup' and that's its the grandparents job to help out.

As a child who was gonna end up in care without my grandparents, if really pisses me off. Whether you've had a bad relationship or not, you look after your fudging children.

And if you've got a mental illness like my biological mother did, you shouldnt have had kids 'til it was under control. Rather than me and Shmoo growing up watching it and hoping to God we don't get it.

They have no idea how hard it is for  their parents to have to bring up their grandchildren while in their 50s and 60s. It's hard. We had no money whatsoever. They deserved a medal.

AND its not your parents job to look after YOUR children. It's your job. If you think otherwise, in Jezza's words, you should have put something on the end of it.

Sims 3.

Yes I know I'm a saddo for liking this game but I'm addicted to it! I can't even tell you why, I just am.

Sims 3 Pets is on it's way. It better be worth the Hell it took me to get it. Ordered it once and they sent me Sims 2 Pets and didn't even have the one I wanted and it was thirty quid from eBay! Thirty quid for an expansion? No ta! Bought it from Grainger Games for 18.....it better come. Or someone will die xD

Today.

Had a good day today apart from realising I haven't bought a single Easter egg for any of the 3 sets of family members I have. (Barnett, Finney and Hickman) I felt awful, I didn't even realise how close Easter was.
So I will make this up to them...somehow xD

Anywhoooo, fun day at dads today. Love spending time with them, they're so funny xD and the ickle bunny wabbits were adorable....when they weren't viciously fighting :O xD

Last sentence of the day, watch Puss In Boots!!

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Today...

...my withdrawals are better. Bit dizzy and I cry randomly but MEH, what's changed? xD

I spent like 3 hours today turning myself into an Na'vi (from Avatar) because I really do have no life...here's the nearly finished result xD

That's how bored I was xD


Felt a bit crappy today too, Ben's been preoccupied all day so I didn't have much to do besides annoy Bear. Although she turned it around on me when, somehow, she learned how to throw her toys at me O.o Weird dog!


So I'm going to find someone to annoy for an hour or so online xD Good night folks :D

'Sup :D

Good day today with the sister and mister. It's her birthday tomorrow so I took her out for a meal. She's going out for another one tomorrow, the greedy mare! ;D

My withdrawal symptoms have been back, not as bad but it's just the weird brain shock thing that makes it scary. One minute you're fine and the next you have no idea where you are and every feels shaky and weak. But I knew it was coming today so it was much less scary than yesterday! I can do this. It turns out being on that tablet for so long was making me worse instead of better. I have woke up before 12pm every single day since I've stopped and I feel much better. SO the thing that was supposed to help me was hindering me! Typical world ;D

Have a good night dudes :D

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